Waiting Game

Everyone keeps reminding me that Squirt could be here any day now, but I just can’t seem to believe it.

Am I in denial?

I’m reading childcare books and breastfeeding books and sleep training books.

I try to imagine myself with a deflated belly and a baby in a sling.

I try to imagine Chris holding Sqirt in another room.

I try to imagine not being at work on a Tuesday morning.

It just doesn’t seem real to me.

Will I ever be ready?

How long will we wait to find out?